creativity can be elusive

Sometimes I want to write; other times I feel too private to share my thoughts.  Over the last few months, I've been writing in various little notebooks and keeping a gratitude journal, but not updating my blog.  It feels, three months after my last entry, like an insurmountable task to "update" this to a current state. 
In brief, and to reorient the timeline, I am still working full time at Starbucks on Mass Ave.  Joshua is also now working full time again.  Isa is just getting ready to start kindergarten at a new charter school nearby.  All of us are getting our eight hour days away from home, it seems.  Joshua and I both working full time has taken a toll on us, but we persevere with love in our hearts and thankfulness on our lips.  At least we have just enough money to scrape ourselves out of  loan defaults and past due notices.  We are just now catching up financially.  We haven't quite caught up emotionally...
I am still interested in painting and writing music, but the time crunch of us working opposite shifts and having only one parent home at a time to care for Isa has made finding uninterrupted time to be creative rather  evasive at worst and fleeting at best.  Sometimes, I find it necessary to forgo sleep to find the quiet time to reach within and pull out some kind of expression.  This, of course, means that Isa is sleeping and so music has been shelved in favor of the quieter forms of expression like writing and painting.  When I'm just too tuckered out to express anything, I read.  I've been reading A LOT lately.
Our garden is coming along, but nowhere near what I'd dreamed up. If we had an extra day in each week, maybe, but at least the wildflowers will be coming up soon.  Most of our vegetable seeds were neglected a bit too long.  The only sprouts are sweet peppers and boy, will we be eating a lot of those!  Hardy little things, I'll have to remember that.
This sounds like complaining, but really, life is pretty good.  I am thankful to have an intact family after the stress of the last year.  Isa is still thriving and so ready to start school.  I am seeing this time of busy-ness as a temporary phase and know that both financial and temporal abundance is just ready to burst into bloom in our lives.